so quiet

the nite is so quiet today.. everything suddenly just came dwn hard on me.. i know shouldn't hav put in so much hopes at the first place.. i know the outcome will be like these but i still keep trying.. maybe its call stubbornness.. im just too tired to do anything for now.. give me sometime to recover.. maybe its 1 day.. maybe its 1 month.. maybe its 1 yr.. i also dunno when it will recover.. i hav already loss the basic of self trust.. wats wrong wats rite? i dunno.. less expectation less disappointment.. so i guess i wont expect anything anymore from any1.. now wat i can do is laugh at myself.. wahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahahaahaha